am i the real me now?

yes, thats the question i keep asking myself today..all things comes to me and i was like react in a slow way to solve it,...to find solution...whats that??infront of me all things act like alright,,im strong,i can handle it well..and i can adpt it..but deep inside my heart....like shit...i do not know what is the best way for me to release and for me to shout out all my problem..am i thinking too much, i dont know...what is in my mind now is really scare me..i think of stop and drop UUM...i think of making and drawing a line to separate me and this uni...why,why,why...im so lost..Father Lord, sorry for making u dissapointed at me again...i ned ur grace and guardian...show me thy way...